I wasn’t always this way.
I have been many versions along the way.
Shedding my old self like dead skin.
While discovering the new version that was growing from within.
If all the versions of me stood in a line.
I would clearly see the progression over time.
Being kinder to each one for she didn’t know.
The previous version of her was needed for the next one to grow.
I thank each one for getting me to the next phase.
Because it was hard, the pain left me in a daze.
I couldn’t see clearly the purpose of it all.
Leaving me feeling like I am not enough, insignificant and small.
That was all a lie I lived for far too long.
The pain had a purpose and made me strong
My strength was growing with each obstacle I faced
Growing each year that time couldn’t erase
My worth was never in the perceptions of another.
My worth was always mine that I needed to mother.
Giving her love each day
Showing compassion in the words that I say
How I talk to myself in my mind
Making sure each word I think is kind
Telling her words of encouragement and forgiving her mistakes with grace
Leading her with wisdom through every obstacle she must face
That is how I stepped into my power
My view of myself in the world changed in each passing hour
As the weeks, months and years passed by
My perception of who I am changed, and I had to say goodbye
Farewell to the old me who was filled with so much fear.
Hoping she would be loved and accepted by the ones she held dear
My worth was never in the perceptions of another
My worth was always mine that I needed to mother
Until I realized the truth behind it all
I no longer allow someone else to make me feel like I am not enough, insignificant, and small